little update

Just to keep anyone who might be browsing, yes, of course me and the boy have had sex twice since we broke up. And of course, he's got a new girlfriend, like, the day after. And of course I still like him. Boys really are crap.

girls...

Every girl should have a battery operated friend. I'm serious. I am experiencing immense pleasure and an uncontrollable urge to giggle and smile because I just had the most amazing orgasm. And it literally only took minutes to achieve. So little effort, so much pleasure. And no man needed. No need to fake, or to massage an ego (or anything else!). Just pure, unadulterated, completely selfish, happiness.

Like I said; every girl should own one. Smashing piece of engineering. Get yourself (or or girl) one immediately!!

general catch up

It's been a funny old week. Or two. I do think me and the Boy have reached a new plateau. It's a very nice place to be to be honest. Much preferable to being in a relationship with him. He's much more considerate and communicative as a friend. So let's keep him that way.

I've been having some funny dreams.

And my friend K has herself a boyfriend now. They're sickening. Obviously. And also obviously with valentine's day coming up they're going to be even more hideous in the coming weeks, but such is life.

One particular peculiarity (if you will) is that I've been chatting with the Ex alot more. Not the Boy. Big proper scary relationship ex. It didn't end that well either, and so it's a nice surprise to actually be getting on. I don't think either of us are suffering from ulterior motivations either, which is good. Although I have been called naive by many different people in the past, so perhaps I'm just not reading into it enough. It's been nice chatting to someone who knows me though. I find it hard to open up to people, so it's nice to not have to with him, because he already knows it.

It's very windy outside. I'm craving the sea, but it's late-ish and it's probably freezing out.

Mmm. It's so nice to be tucked up in bed with my beautiful laptop, chatting to an old friend, and the possibility of playing with my vibrator :) It's nice and quiet, I've found out, and is very very useful :) :) Very lovely indeed. A fine investment. Ahem. Enough of this gutter talk.

How fantastic is it that David Attenborough is on the tv again??? Well, it's proper ace innit, if you ask me anyway.

Everyone should watch Life in Cold Blood because even though it's lizards and reptiles and things, and they're a bit creepy, it's Dave the ledge, so you should all get glued in.

Be there, mayte.

Head is all messed up at the moment. Am drinking far too much, and starting far too early, but it just makes me feel better. It's very confusing. I have all these thoughts in my head, swirling like a fog, but I can't even be bothered to tune in to most of them because it's such a headache to untangle everything and analyze and go through it. It's easier just to let my head be weighed down by it really. At the moment anyway.

I can see why people go and talk to therapists. At least they just ask you stuff and prompt you to spill it. If you've only got yourself it's much harder to drag information out...

So... that's quite enough for today I think. Happy shrove tuesday to all, may you scoff many pancakes!