here and there

We've been looking at houses for next year. It's a bit stressful but also it's a little bit exciting.
I'm sat in my bed talking to a friend and watching gossip girl on itv catchup. I really love gossip girl. Even though the idea that there's some strange spy giving everyone text updates on the gossip of New York is really weird and also not really explained. I am completely in love with Chuck Bass. And I also think Blair is completely fantastic. I think the guy who plays Chuck was in Vanilla Sky paying this little autistic kid or something.
Whenever I go out at the minute, I always end up leaving early. I'm not sure what it is. Because I really do love going out dancing. I love everything about it; getting dressed up, dancing around, seeing all my friends, getting ratted (or not, whatever). It's such good fun. But recently I always get this strange feeling, like I can't stand everyone being around me. It's like I'm in a bubble and everyone's trying to annoy me. And nothing helps, and I can't get into the mood. And all I want to do is run away.
So that's what I do lately. I just end up going home without telling anyone. It's usually fine, but last night I hadn't taken keys, so I had to sit on the step being hassled by drunks across the road. It was gross. Although still miles better than staying in the club.
My macbook's fixed now. Go Apple.
I'm getting a tattoo on Saturday morning.
I think I'm going to eat some birthday cake.

that man....

Oh my. He really is most impressive. I have a little bit of a crush on the new Mr President. And I completely love Michelle as the new Jackie O. Oh oh oh :) Today has made me so so happy. I made a snowman, and watched history. I even loved it when he fluffed his inauguration declaration. Because that man has style. Style and finesse. Style and finesse and sex appeal. What a man.
I texted my friend at 5:35pm (GMT) and said 'well, 35 minutes and no assassination. What's another eight years?' and he replied with, 'Joe Biden, 45th President of the United States'. :( let's hope not, hey? Fingers crossed they have their security down.

While typing united states, I typed Untied. Think that captures it quite brilliantly at the moment. But never mind, because Barack is in charge now, and he's proper cool innit like.
Happy :)

This is my hundredth post. Ha. Imagine that. Mind you, it's two years, I think. Or three. I haven't kept a close count. I had an exam today. It wasn't the worst of exams, but it was a little harder than I was expecting. No. That isn't true. It was just the parts I anticipated to be difficult were less so, and the easier parts were more difficult than I expected.

Last night I ate the most delicious noodles I've ever eaten. With my new chopsticks It made me really happy to eat them without a fork, like everyone else did. And they do make you feel really elegant and sophisticated.

I'm taking a break from revision (I have another exam on Thursday) and watching Oz and James Drink to Britain on bbciplayer. It's very relaxing and soothing. Although it's nearly over, and then that means I should go back to work, but I don't want to. I'm learning about perception. It could be worse.
My housemate is driving me crazy. She's never here, so it could be worse, but it's just when she is - jesus! It's horrific. She's fake and all smiley and disgusting, even though she owes everyone loads of money for things like gas and electric and phone bills. I might murder her. It would mean we'd never get the money, but I think it would please everyone. They'd be happy to take one for the team in a monetary sense, I'm sure.

I hate how whenever you have money, and want to buy things, there's never anything you want. Or that's how it works with me anyway. I think the trick is to buy everything you like, and then eventually your money will catch up with your debt, and then you'll have lots of pretty things :)
I need to buy some more liquid eyeliner, and I feel like some new hairslides of some sort. And I need to vacuum the house, because it's getting a bit gross. Like, not awful, but just lots of bits all over the carpets and it looks untidy and makes me feel a little bit stressed out. But I cleaned the kitchen today so that made me feel better.

........ I'm writing this hours later. at 3.04am. Oh lord. Boys confuse me. I think I like this guy who lives far away. Another country far. But we'll see. Oh the welcoming arms of confusion.

I'm in the bath, which is in a small room near the top of my house. It's very long and narrow and deep, and I've filled it nearly to the top. I've placed chair next to the bath, that my laptop's resting on. The window is open a tiny bit, so the room isn't so hot and steamy, and I can hear a force eight gale blowing outside. It's really nice, hearing the wind so loud when I'm so warm and cosy. I really like this room.
I feel so nice.

pan's labyrinth.

I just got back to uni and finished unpacking and everything. It's good to be back, I've missed everyone.
Saw a cracking fight tonight as well. It was exciting because it was right across the road from our house, and there were 3 police cars and a van! Three blokes got arrested. But it was nice that we were safe in our house so we weren't in danger. That would have scared me.
Lots of revision to do, but it's okay. Oh I love my bed. It annoys me when boys ask me to take off my clothes. Well, not boyfriends.

sleepy.

I'm so tired it's ridiculous. Once again last night I napped, from about 8 until 9. Although I did work before I napped as well as after, for a change, so I got more done (hurrah!).But I still didn't sleep sleep until nearly four, which annoys me.
But today is my last day of work (!!) so I get to lie in tomorrow. Then I'm back to uni forever and ever. Until easter anyway.
I'm annoyed because no one I really love to read is blogging that much. And I, on the whole, prefer blogs to vlogs. I don't know what that says about me.
I really want today to pass really quickly. And I really want lots of people to text me. In particular, I'd like it if Stu texted me, but he's busy with alot of work and stuff. He's having sleep issues too which mean he's too tired to focus on work properly, which then keeps him awake with worry and stuff. It's not a good cycle.
At least I'm semi on top of my work. Yeah, I think semi on top of is an okay place to be.
I really can't wait to get home and make myself a hot chocolate with frothy milk. Being so cold at work makes me feel dire. I think it also makes me more tired. Although, it's when I'm warm that I fall asleep. So maybe not. Have to stop falling asleep at work. Especially on the stairs, that's not good behaviour.
I don't understand why everyone forgets how to drive when it snows. It's just snow. If the roads are warm, it wont' even freeze, so it's just essentially rainwater on the road. There's no reason to panic, or put fog lights on, or drive at 20mph. It doesn't make anything easier. Just stop being so stupid, k?
I can't wait for lunch. Only one hour left. I could eat now, but then I have longer to wait between finishing lunch and finishing for the day. I'd really like something sweet..but I can't think what. Maybe carrot cake. Ooh yes. Really soft, moist (steady on) carrot cake with lemon icing. They made the best carrot cake at my sixth form college. Mazing.
So this is ostentatiously long (surpassed only in its ostenticity* by its dullness?) So maybe I should just wrap it up. I might save it, and edit it at home. Or who knows, even add to its length.

*is this a word?

-edit. ostenticity is not a word. because it is not spelled, as I originally thought 'ostentaciously' so there would be no 'c' to make a 'city'. It's a 't'. So, the word is ostentatiousness. Which annoys me, because 'ness' is a suffix twatty kids put at the end of everything, eg coolness. erk.

tragus

This is my new piercing. I love it lots and lots. It doesn't hurt, which is nice. And it didn't even hurt (really) when I had it done. It sort of happened accidentally; I went to uni on Monday to hand in an essay, and I ended up staying the night, and I went into town the next day and had it done. It was sooo nice to see my housemates again after the Christmas break. I'm really excited to get back now, even though that means cramming and exams. Because I ♥ them and they are lovely :) It hurts a little bit now though, because I just cleaned it and rotated it and stuff. I wrote that first bit at 7pm on Wednesday. It's now 2:11am on Thursday. Did you know that the bees we have in our country now aren't native to britain? They died out during WW1. Or maybe WW2. Anway, they died, so the government had loads imported from brazil and europe and all over really. So now I don't mind so much that the bees are dying out. Not because I'm a bee racist, but because if it's happened once, then we can just get more again like last time. I don't want to have to work in the morning, but I really need the money. Sob. I have done a little bit of revision tonight at least. Which is better than nothing. I might take some uni work in to work tomorrow in case my boss leaves and I can get some done. I'm sure it must be worth just taking it, in case. I really like Paul Frank tee shirts and Swatch watches. I got bored today while I was photographing things for my job, so I ended up photographing myself. So I have more pictures from today:
The photo is a bit blurred because it wasn't light, but I don't like to use flash, and I couldn't hold the camera very still with only one hand.
It's a little confusing that the little blinking cursor symbol has disappeared, so I can't tell where I'm going to type until the words appear, but I think I'm coping well in the face of such bewilderment.
I'm watching QI. I really love QI. Every now and then, something really posh from Stephen's childhood (he went to private school) somehow makes its way into conversation, and the panelists rip him to shreds. It's so funny. Especially if Bill Bailey or Phil Jupitus are on; they do awfully good toff impressions. It usually ends up with everyone dissolving in laughter, and Stephen going 'Oh you beasts' very camply. It's marvellous. I'm feeling so much better for having had a little zuzz earlier. Sleep is a wonderful thing. Especially napping. But I'm also happy because I finally learned how to print screen on my mac. Although, finally isn't really the right word to use because I've never actually tried to find out before. But I have always wondered.
I think I might try and nod off now, because it's got to 2:22, and I can't let it get to 3am before I start settling down, not again. I'm in such bad sleeping habits.

My mum just bought a new sugar bowl. I might photograph the old one and new one together.
I spilled tea on my nightshirt. Now it's cold, and sticking to me a little bit.
What I'd really like is someone to think I'm perfect, and just want to look after me, and spend time with me, and share themselves with me.
My top left wisdom tooth is coming through again, and it hurts.
It was 1.15am when I started writing this. Now it's 3.21. I'm sat in bed watching QI. I've finished writing an assignment, which is good. But I have to work tomorrow, and I'll be horribly tired. So I'm going to knit a last row of my scarf and then try and turn over and sleep.
I feel so strange. I'm not really sure what I'm doing at all.
I watched Twilight tonight though, on the internet. That boy is beautiful. Just amazing looking. And I love Kristen Stewart who played Bella. She's also been in Fierce People and Into the Wild. My ex made me watch into the wild because he loved it, early last year, just after my best friend had died, and I cried for hours and hours. It was horrible. But it is a good film. And she's absolutely beautiful.
Ok, so....absolutely pointless post finished for now. I feel really alone and it's horrible. Please will someone wake up and call me.