I'm so so happy. AGAIN. I awoke this morning, after an extra hour in bed - thankyou daylight savings - to a lovely text from a boy that I now consider to be mine. He's so lovely. He may not text alot, but when he does it is with precision timing and wonderful content. Oh hurrah for boys!!
Having said that, yesterday I was witness to something which reminded me how hard relationships can be. I was at my friend's house, and her boyfriend's brother came to stay, and after a day of being there, he decided he was bored and was constantly complaining and saying everything was shit. So he picked a fight, and upset my friend. So then everyone got cross and he left and went home.
Then my friend and her boyfriend just sort of...melted. It wasn't nice to watch. I don't like confrontation and the whole thing made me very uneasy. But within about 20 minutes they were fine again. It was a bit scary though.
It made me remember that there is a serious side to relationships too, not just being happy when you get a nice text, no matter how nice a feeling that is.
Well, nevermind, I'm sure it will be a long time before mr boy and I get to that stage (if we ever do), so for now I will endeavour to enjoy the newness of it.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
oh my god oh my god he likes me he likes me!!!
I was at his house last night and he told me an american girl had hit on him, and even though she was quite fit and had a sexy accent he said he didn't want to because he was sort of involved with someone. I'M SOMEONE!!!! :D:D:D:D
I'm sooooooooooo happy!!! And he told me I'm beautiful. And he asked me if I'd sleep with him - it isn't how it sounds, we just got on to the topic - and he said he wouldn't sleep with me at this stage in our relationship. He said we'd have to be boyfriend/girlfriend before he would. So he's definitely thinking about it.
So so so excellent. I'm a very happy girl.
And he knew that I was a bit worried about K. I was a bit drunk at the time, so I can't quite remember how he worded it, but he asked me if I'd been jealous about her. (I think). And I said I was but not because I thought he liked her, because I didn't get why he was going on about her.
I really really like him. And I think he really really likes me too. Happy happy. Didn't want to leave this afternoon but I have a date with a friend, so...
Actually there's quite alot more to say boy-wise. Mr ex told me he's still in love with me, and feels stronger than he did when we were together. Which is a bit shit really. We thrashed it out on the internet the other night for about 3 hours. He's idiolised our relationship in his head, he thinks we were perfect. And we blatantly weren't, we were just an ordinary couple. He thinks we were in love, but I don't think we were. We were just infatuated. I made the mistake of telling him that and he said "That really hurts". I couldn't lead him on though. It was just awful.
So, unsurprisingly we're no longer going to meet up on his birthday/bonfire night.
Definitely for the best.
Hurrah for the Boy!!!
I was at his house last night and he told me an american girl had hit on him, and even though she was quite fit and had a sexy accent he said he didn't want to because he was sort of involved with someone. I'M SOMEONE!!!! :D:D:D:D
I'm sooooooooooo happy!!! And he told me I'm beautiful. And he asked me if I'd sleep with him - it isn't how it sounds, we just got on to the topic - and he said he wouldn't sleep with me at this stage in our relationship. He said we'd have to be boyfriend/girlfriend before he would. So he's definitely thinking about it.
So so so excellent. I'm a very happy girl.
And he knew that I was a bit worried about K. I was a bit drunk at the time, so I can't quite remember how he worded it, but he asked me if I'd been jealous about her. (I think). And I said I was but not because I thought he liked her, because I didn't get why he was going on about her.
I really really like him. And I think he really really likes me too. Happy happy. Didn't want to leave this afternoon but I have a date with a friend, so...
Actually there's quite alot more to say boy-wise. Mr ex told me he's still in love with me, and feels stronger than he did when we were together. Which is a bit shit really. We thrashed it out on the internet the other night for about 3 hours. He's idiolised our relationship in his head, he thinks we were perfect. And we blatantly weren't, we were just an ordinary couple. He thinks we were in love, but I don't think we were. We were just infatuated. I made the mistake of telling him that and he said "That really hurts". I couldn't lead him on though. It was just awful.
So, unsurprisingly we're no longer going to meet up on his birthday/bonfire night.
Definitely for the best.
Hurrah for the Boy!!!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Oh god. Whatever I've ever said about Boy liking me, should just be ignored from now on. I am clearly a horrendous judge of character. All he has gone on about today is my friend K. We're all sort of, a group of friends, and I don't seriously think he has feelings for her. But If I were a guy, and I was talking to a girl I really like and who I knew really liked me, I'm positive that I wouldn't talk to her about how much I missed another girl.
Although he did seem concerned when I said I was terrible on msn (because my ex has been hassling me, and only just finally cottoned on today that we are NOT getting back together). and he was asking if I have feelings for him still. Although maybe he was just doing the concerned friend thing, and it wasn't him being jealous.
Also, he said to me 'are you coming at mine tomorrow night' which suggests to me that he only cares about one thing. Which is fair enough, but I didn't think we were like that.
But I do really like him, so I suppose I'll just have to put up with it. Take what I can get.
Although he did seem concerned when I said I was terrible on msn (because my ex has been hassling me, and only just finally cottoned on today that we are NOT getting back together). and he was asking if I have feelings for him still. Although maybe he was just doing the concerned friend thing, and it wasn't him being jealous.
Also, he said to me 'are you coming at mine tomorrow night' which suggests to me that he only cares about one thing. Which is fair enough, but I didn't think we were like that.
But I do really like him, so I suppose I'll just have to put up with it. Take what I can get.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Sunday, October 21, 2007
oh my god oh my god. boys are so so so lovely.
so confusing. but so lovely.
i abandoned this blog a while back because it's quite awful. however, now i have mentionitis of mr boy(a new one, not the one previously mentioned) and i have had to stop talking about him because my friends are going to kill me soon.
so i'm going to write on here about it.
he's soooooooooo lovely! i'm not sure what we are yet. it's definately some sort of relationship, but he says he's not my boyfriend. hmmm. is that a huge problem? i've only known him about 3 weeks though, so i dunno. maybe i'm just too obsessed.
I hate this stage of a relationship. The part just before you know where you stand. Maybe it's just me who goes through this phase.
Actually, boys are not lovely at all. Boys are pretty shit. My friend's boy has cheated on her 3 times that I know of, and she still goes back to him, and is completely happy to leave him at home while she's at uni. See, this is what men do to girls. They make them absolutely crazy - they do things that they would never usually think were normal.
My boy - well, let's just call him mine - keeps telling me that he'll end up hurting me so i shouldn't get involved, but he's so lovely, and even if that's true, you can't just turn off your feelings can you? Well I know I can't. Plus, I suppose most people think they can change a person as well.
It's so bizarre. I'm talking to Chris my ex about mr boy, my possible future. Scary business, this friends post relationship thing.
I think he does really like me. mr boy, not Chris.
OK.
Reasons that suggest he really likes me:
he danced with me even though he hates dancing
he doesn't want to have sex because it complicates things
but he does want to have sex
he tells me I'm beautiful
he tells me I'm sexy
he kisses my head
he strokes me
he cuddles me and kisses my neck and my collarbone
he feels safe with me
he thinks i look nice without makeup on
he worries about me talking to randomers
he doesn't let me walk home alone
it didn't scare him when he thought i was referring to him as my boyfriend
he says we're good together
he referred to us as 'us'
he wants me to be honest with him about how i feel
he referred to us as a relationship
Reasons that suggest he's not arsed:
he's said he's never got over rosie
he takes ages to text back
i don't see him alot
he didn't kiss me the other night
i'm not clear on where we stand with each other
i go to his more than he comes here
now, what i'm trying to work out, is whether the pro list is only bigger because i want it to be... but i can't think of that many reasons. Also, I read somewhere that the human brain has evolved to look for the negatives so we can like, be prepared, and then kill it. So, hopefully it's just my mind that is obsessed with the negative side of things for no reason.
feel so much better for making that list.
i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
so confusing. but so lovely.
i abandoned this blog a while back because it's quite awful. however, now i have mentionitis of mr boy(a new one, not the one previously mentioned) and i have had to stop talking about him because my friends are going to kill me soon.
so i'm going to write on here about it.
he's soooooooooo lovely! i'm not sure what we are yet. it's definately some sort of relationship, but he says he's not my boyfriend. hmmm. is that a huge problem? i've only known him about 3 weeks though, so i dunno. maybe i'm just too obsessed.
I hate this stage of a relationship. The part just before you know where you stand. Maybe it's just me who goes through this phase.
Actually, boys are not lovely at all. Boys are pretty shit. My friend's boy has cheated on her 3 times that I know of, and she still goes back to him, and is completely happy to leave him at home while she's at uni. See, this is what men do to girls. They make them absolutely crazy - they do things that they would never usually think were normal.
My boy - well, let's just call him mine - keeps telling me that he'll end up hurting me so i shouldn't get involved, but he's so lovely, and even if that's true, you can't just turn off your feelings can you? Well I know I can't. Plus, I suppose most people think they can change a person as well.
It's so bizarre. I'm talking to Chris my ex about mr boy, my possible future. Scary business, this friends post relationship thing.
I think he does really like me. mr boy, not Chris.
OK.
Reasons that suggest he really likes me:
he danced with me even though he hates dancing
he doesn't want to have sex because it complicates things
but he does want to have sex
he tells me I'm beautiful
he tells me I'm sexy
he kisses my head
he strokes me
he cuddles me and kisses my neck and my collarbone
he feels safe with me
he thinks i look nice without makeup on
he worries about me talking to randomers
he doesn't let me walk home alone
it didn't scare him when he thought i was referring to him as my boyfriend
he says we're good together
he referred to us as 'us'
he wants me to be honest with him about how i feel
he referred to us as a relationship
Reasons that suggest he's not arsed:
he's said he's never got over rosie
he takes ages to text back
i don't see him alot
he didn't kiss me the other night
i'm not clear on where we stand with each other
i go to his more than he comes here
now, what i'm trying to work out, is whether the pro list is only bigger because i want it to be... but i can't think of that many reasons. Also, I read somewhere that the human brain has evolved to look for the negatives so we can like, be prepared, and then kill it. So, hopefully it's just my mind that is obsessed with the negative side of things for no reason.
feel so much better for making that list.
i wish i was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
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