I think the differences between people are so interesting. For example, today I'm at work (summer job) I work in a shop that sells alot of fabric, and my two colleagues were drooling over a new tape measure that one of them had bought. I couldn't have told it apart from any other tape measure, but because they measure alot of fabric, they've created their own sort of little subculture. It's so interesting!
And at the same time, they are two completely different people. While flicking through a new fabric book which just came in, L was swooning over the different designs, and at how beautiful some of the material was. Whereas T looked at the pages with a completely different eye. He was working out the profit margins and trying to estimate which would be most popular and therefore generate the most business.
Ohh I just love watching people :)

Yesterday I was on my way home, and decided on a whim to turn right down a small country road. It wound round and round and up and away and then I came out of the trees and was next to the reservoir. And the sun had set. And it was beautiful :)

And then I hung out with a couple of friends for a while. We watched films and played video games, and we looked out of the window and it was getting light, so we climbed a big hill near our houses and watched the sun rise :)

Long day. Nice day :)

God, I love Bob Marley

So, it's July. Gawd, summer is going super fast. I can't believe I just missed another year of Benicassim. Unbelievable. I really have to make it next year. Actually plan my summer and book the ticket.
That isn't to say I'm not having a good time, it's just Beni is something I've wanted to do for aaaaaaaages, and I want to go while I'm still a relatively carefree student.
That being said, I'm not sure how I've actually been spending my time. Time sort of seems like it's evaporated away.
I've spent most days with two friends called J and J. They live really close, so when I'm tossing and turning at 3am they're easy to visit. Sometimes we watch movies, or go out dancing, but mostly we drive around and find beautiful spots and sit and smoke as the black sky gives way to dawn. It doesn't sound much but it really is lovely. And of course I've been catching up with everyone else, and trying to arrange to see my uni friends. Though that never seems to go brilliantly because everyone's so tied up.
Actually, it's been quite strange to see one of the Js. We used to be very good friends, and er.. a bit more than friends. But it wasn't good for either of us. We sort of... aggravated each others' problems and emotions and things. And in the end we just ended up not seeing each other. Whenever we met, we'd awkwardly look away. It wasn't great at all. But at the party of a mutual friend, we chatted a little, and while we were both at uni we spoke infrequently. Now we're home and it's been really nice to have someone so nearby who I just get on with so well. It's so familiar and easy. It makes me think how stupid I was to ever ruin such a relationship with a physical side. It just isn't worth it in alot of cases.
The weather's been a bit rubbish, so I haven't been camping as much as I'd like, and I've only been to the beach once :( But I'm hopeful. All it takes it one nice day!
Anyway, I'm suuuuuuuure the weather will be lovely in Greece. Me and my friend (one of the Js) just booked a holiday in Kefalonia at the end of August which should be alot of fun. I can't wait to see it, because I loved reading Captain Correli's Mandolin, and even though I didn't hear great things about the film, the scenery received nothing but praise.

Picture from http://corwood.tumblr.com/.

Something amazing happened. My macbook got repaired! I was so so pleased. It was being a dick for a little while, but then it finally packed in and the harddrive imploded. I hate being without it when it's being fixed, but then it always works like it's brand new again, and it's lovely :) I'm shopping for a new bag for it so I can look after it a bit better in future. I quite like this one. It's quite dinky. Maybe not the pink though.
I'd better get back to work anyway. Hopefully we're going to go to the Lake District this evening and find some Stonehenge-esque circles and dance with hippies :)

I have inky fingers; it's nice. When I lie on my front, on my elbows, my ears hear poorly, and when I stand, from this position, I get the worst kind of headache.
I'm watching a film called Benny and Joon, with Johnny Depp in. It reminds me a little of What's Eating Gilbert Grape, but maybe that's just because of the mental health overtones.
I can smell steak, and I want to walk by the canal, and never worry about whether I'm normal or not. I want somebody to love me again, I want not to like the boy that I like. I want a job that I enjoy and I want a good degree.
I want a tattoo of a semicolon.
I like finding pictures on weheartit.com and saving them. Some of them are really lovely.
Fantasy isn't good enough.
I want my best friend.
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Hello!

I'm in London with my friend Jemma. I'm absolutely hammered which is just lovely, and we're going to a barbecue soon. I left my suitcase in the pub where we got drunk, but it's okay, because our friend is going to pick it up for me. I love my tattoo. I love that it makes me think of her, and I'm having a nice time. It feels like it brings her along. You probably don't know what I'm talking about. I don't care.
It's hot, and London is still lovely, and my dress is nice. And having been on a train makes me happy. Travel travel :)
Today is good, and the days to follow should be good also. So here's to goodness ..

I think I had a panic attack today. I woke up at about 5 and I couldn't breathe and was shaking and crying. I had to sit on the floor and try and chill myself out. Scary.

Last night was lovely. Candles and blankets and a warm breeze in the garden. Skinned up lots. Lovely housemates. It was lovely lovely lovely.
Oh, and the boys tried to steal a bench.
:)
I love my friends.
The new therapist is nicer than the old one.