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It's strange to write after neglecting it for so long.
Life is continuing. Some days are absolutely horrific, but there are less of them the more time passes. It's good not to feel rubbish always, but sometimes I worry I'm forgetting her when I feel happy.

........I wrote that paragraph a couple of hours ago. A few minutes ago my best friend's sister called to tell me that she's being featured in Vogue!A few months ago she entered a writing competition in the magazine. Oh I'm so so proud of her. She's so fantastic and amazing. I think I'll buy it when I finish work, and go and visit her grave with it. She would be so so happy knowing she was in Vogue. I can't stop hopping up and down :)

I have yet to get sad about this - no doubt it will descend shortly. But for now I'm content to be absolutely over the moon for her. What a fantastic girl :) Oh something as brilliant as that just makes you walk on air for a few hours.

What else has been going on? Well... The boy told me he loves me. His name is O. He's very very lovely. He's actually been really lovely and understanding through this mire of shit that has consumed everyone recently. He is, I'm happy to say, a bit of a life saver. And a musician! What could be better? I like that he knew my best friend too. When you're crying for your loss, it's ... not nice. but it's better, because you know they understand, to some degree, how you feel. He is, in many ways, one of the best things to happen to me this year.

Other new things to discuss...travel. After the horror of April, me and a friend decided to get away.We commensed a bit of a Eurotrip. We started in London (obv) and caught the Eurostar to paris. From there we visited Amsterdam, Berlin, Interlaken, Lake Garda, Venice, Rome, Nice, Barcelona and then returned to Paris. It took about a month, and was the best fun ever. Getting away (not running away) was the best thing I could have done. We took her with us, but not having to be faced with the every day act of grieving was refreshing and relieving. I don't know how to end this. So