Me : (03:26:35)
oh god i hate feeling like this

him. : (03:26:40)
like what?

He's right. Like what? Sometimes I feel like I don't exist. Like I'm getting more and more transparent layer by layer. And when that happens I sort of feel like my brain is evaporating. And sometimes I feel like I'd like to die, really slowly and whispery.
I really do feel like I have no effect on things around me. Which is ridiculous because clearly I'm pressing keys on a keyboard.
I just made myself raspberry and pomegranate tea in my little willow patterned bowl again. But I still feel like I'm disappearing. And that I might be gone tomorrow. And that if I'm still here, I'll be unhappy forever.