Friday, December 05, 2008

progress?

I've been feeling shitty for a few days. But today has actually been really good. I woke up about nine this morning, which is nice because then you feel like you get the whole day. And I stayed in bed until eleven because it was just too warm and toasty inside to leave.
Then I went to a class, which was nice because it meant i put on nice clothes and did my hair and makeup and stuff instead of just lounging in my pyjamas and hoodie all day, and I listened to Kings of Leon on my iPod which made me smile as I bopped down the street. Going to my class also made me feel like a good little student. Then I came back and power walked up the huge hill to my house, and then did my Davina workout dvd. Then I've just been chilling on my computer for most of the day. I did some more Davina to keep warm in our freezing house, and I watched some Sex and the City dvds, and I watched Amelie as I ate pasta.
I adore Amelie. I love the film, I love Audrey Tautou, but mostly I just love the character of Amelie. I always really want to be her friend, even though she's fictional. And the accordion music that accompanies the film is just brilliant.
I also had a lovely conversation with one of my oldest and closest friends today (oldest in the length of time I've known him, not his age).
Another lovely surprise was when my housemate came and sat in my room with her cat (I love them both dearly) and we had a chat which I thought had lasted about ten minutes, but was actually an hour long! Which made me happy because it means we're closer than I had previously imagined (not being very good friends with this housemate is a worry that sometimes crosses my mind).
And currently, I'm watching a Louis Theroux documentary while I talk to a boy who I really really get on with, but who I'm pretty sure nothing will happen with (which is nice and reassuring right now) but who does fancy me a little bit, which is nice and complimentary. I fancy him too, a little, which is nice because it makes it that little bit more special to talk to him. So today is good. Hopefully I am making progress. Watch this space....

*edit: Also, I'm going home this weekend (which does sort of fill me with anxiety because I haven't been home since me and the ex split. Even though I am certain not to run into him, the emotions and feelings etc of things connected with him is something I am worried about) and I'm going to get extremely high with my friend J, and hopefully have dinner with A and J2, and decorate our family tree! What isn't there to love about Christmas :)

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