booooooooored

I'm at my friend's at the moment. It's 01:43, and everyone's asleep? What? I can't believe this news. Jesus.

grrrr

I was such a nice girlfriend! And now he's such an arse! Like, for example, he came to visit me at uni in May. And prior to this we hadn't had sex. And he suggested it, so I said yeah I'd love to. And then he came instantly and la la la and he went to pieces and I was so nice to him and I looked after him and made sure he was ok and helped him lots, and then eventually went on to basically eradicate his premature ejaculation, and now he won't even reply to a text? A TEXT? are you kidding me? I fucking hate him.

pleased :)

I'm so pleased. I feel really content. I'm laid in my bed, watching Curb your enthusiasm, talking to the boy I like, and I'm a little bit high. It's really lovely and mellow.
AND Mememolly posted another blog entry, which makes me happy.
I wish I hadn't smoked the last of my weed, but the last of it has pleased me somewhat. Roll on Christmas Day.

♥ Roamer

Me : (03:26:35)
oh god i hate feeling like this

him. : (03:26:40)
like what?

He's right. Like what? Sometimes I feel like I don't exist. Like I'm getting more and more transparent layer by layer. And when that happens I sort of feel like my brain is evaporating. And sometimes I feel like I'd like to die, really slowly and whispery.
I really do feel like I have no effect on things around me. Which is ridiculous because clearly I'm pressing keys on a keyboard.
I just made myself raspberry and pomegranate tea in my little willow patterned bowl again. But I still feel like I'm disappearing. And that I might be gone tomorrow. And that if I'm still here, I'll be unhappy forever.

My Trip Home

My Trip Home was so hard and stupid. It was really really windy and the wind kept blowing me out of my lane (particularly when overtaking lorries) and the rain was horrible. There was so much and it was so fast that even on the fastest settings my wipers couldn't cope. Especially when the spray from other drivers was getting in my windscreen. Oh, and my rear wiper died on me, so I couldn't see out of the back window, which rendered my rear view mirror pretty much redundant.

So because I didn't want to get overtaken by people due to the spray, I decided to only drive in the inside lane. So I was driving very quickly, about 90 (very quickly for me), and then, helpfully, my boot popped open! I didn't realise at first because I was listening very loudly to Crystal Method. But I felt a draft and then I realised. So I had to really quickly pull over to the hard shoulder - I nearly took out about a couple of cars in my panic - and shut the door.

Thankfully I didn't lose anything :)

ps

This morning there was a box of Thornton's chocolates on the table, and I ate three. If I'm going to keep this up I need to do more Davina! They were really yummy though ^^.