Hmm. It's very possible that I'm in an entirely dysfunctional relationship.
Last night I had a sort of argument (can you argue over text?) with my boyfriend about the fact that I couldn't visit him (this is despite the fact that he never ever visits me) and then it sort of came about that he ended up threatening that he might finish with me.
So then this morning I gave in and told him I would visit.
But then later on today, I said to him 'You don't love me, do you.' Not in a mardy way; we were having a nice conversation. Anyway, he answered, and he said 'To be honest, no I don't think I do'.
Which was a bit of a shock to the system.
It's meant I've been in a huge sort of painful fuggy cloud all day. But I think I might be ok with it now. It's ok that he doesn't love me isn't it? I mean, if I'm ok with it, it's not a bad thing?
I hope not.
I'm going to see him soon anyway. So I hope everything will be ok.
Mmm going for tea with my housemates tonight. Hopefully that will take my mind off it, and also please my tummy.
Then I will go home and have drinkies, and put ribbons in my hair and dance madly.
Please please please please love me one day.