So it's now the 2nd of March. The months are completely flying by, it's catching me off guard a little. And exam time is round again already! Revising for the midterms is killing me. But it does mean that all the things I usually put off doing get done. Like tidying my room, and sewing things that need to be sewed.
I went to my appointment with the counsellor. It was a bit burn. I mean, it was probably good to go, because at least now I know what it's like. But I didn't enjoy it. Maybe you aren't supposed to. Alot of things that are good for you aren't enjoyable. Like broccoli. I didn't like explaining all the stupid stuff in my head. And I wasn't keen on her overly therapist-y questions. There was alot of head nodding and conclusion drawing and strangeness of phrase. She was nice, it just... didn't sit right with me somehow.
going. He can't nag at me now. Although the fact that I've now been to see three mental health professionals and am still in absolutely the same position is pretty depressing. Which isn't a brilliant thing for a depressed person to feel, to be honest. Ugh, that word.I'm not sure.
Anyway, it hardly matters because they don't have any appointment slots available.
She suggested that I have a freezing cold shower instead of cutting myself, because apparently it's a similar shock to your skin's nerves. We'll see.
At least it got Tom off my back by going.
Although that in itself is strange. He thinks he's in love with me, and all sorts of weird stuff like that. Sometimes it's nice and comforting that someone cares (or thinks he cares, I cant' really work it out) so much about me, but sometimes it's frustrating that our friendship is coloured by his feelings. I can't work that one out.




Brighter things; I completely love Emily and Naomi on Skins. They seem so sweet and innocent and fragile. It's beautiful. I keep watching all those weird videos on youtube that people put together, and taking screen shots of the scene where they're riding their bikes (I downloaded the song that plays in the background too). Though I think most of the youtubers making vids about them are overly focused on the lesbian thing. Which is a bit irritating.
I'm becoming overly preoccupied by twitter and dailybooth. I love how instant everything is. And frequent. Not like blogs and videos. And facebook's too... I don't know. There's something really appealing about twitter and dailybooth anyway.
Ugh. I should probably get some sleep, or revise, or do something constructive, instead of talking to no one about nothing.
I hate that we have no gas and no toilet paper. Hmph.
la la la laaaaaaaaaaaa..

ps - I'm really happy because I just noticed mememolly posted a new blog :)
also, I'm pleased with myself because I remembered to put the bin out tonight (well I remembered to ask Leon to do it, because I can't drag the bin up the stairs because it's too heavy) so we didn't have to play the 'quick hide our rubbish in bins all around the town because we forgot to put it out last week and now have too much' game.
:)